Update to First Song

No one's here. I sit alone,
At the dawn of a new journey.
Dancing around a truth
That I don't wanna see.
You don't love me.
You don't even desire me.

I was so scared to let you in—
Terrified you might penetrate my walls
Later, I feared the empty space
That’d remain if you left...
when you left.

We never were quite right,
"Us" was always draining,
And now we're both tired of pretending.

I thought I was ready to jump!
But I had to meet a boy,
A man more lost than me.

The world spins around us...
kites fly, shoes fly, dreams fly
and finally you fly...away,
far away from me.

And now I miss the closeness.
I miss your bright green eyes.
I wish we could have made us work.
I wish you, had told me, goodbye.

It has a tune now. It's a sad song, but I like it, and it feels good to sing it.