I was just looking at a bunch of cadet's pictures from field training. The first group just got back. It's such a let down not to get to go to something you've been preparing for, for the past two years. Wow.. two years. Time sure does seem to be flying lately. Library isn't killing me today! I have been doing a sweep of the 3rd floor (this is after I did a sweep of the 4th this morning!). Anywho, back to work.
So my mom let is slip to my sister, who in turn let it slip to my dad, that I will not be continuing in the Air Force. Well, my dad calls me yesterday to tell me that I forgot his birthday and that he was soooooooooo disappointed in me! Blah!! I understand I took an oath, I understand the type of commitment that I made, but even the air force understands that college kids' life plans tend to change! I would most certainly love to honor my commitment to the AF but if I don't do this I'm going to regret it for the rest of my life. I need to be doing something creative! And if I could make it work I would, but I can't. I then proceeded to call my mother and yell at her for telling my sister and she was surprisingly understanding. It was most certainly the best conversation I've ever had with my mom. She gets it. And she's not disappointed, she's proud that I finally had the courage to go after what I want. I don't know what I'm going to do about my dad. I think I'll write him a letter or something.
Yup, so I'm feeling much better today. That book always makes me soooooooo sad. So last night I watched a nice girly movie with rachael and got mint chocolate chip frozen yogurt! And then Josh came over!! Nice surprise! He's so lucky I have Rachael to get my girly movie moods out with lol. Oh so I forgot to mention that I went cherry picking this weekend and Rachael and I made a fresh cherry pie! I even used leaf cookie cutters to make a cool top crust. It was fun and nice to get to see Moo Loo again! Well back to work!
I think I have an aversion to being called an actress. I'm trying to imagine being introduced as an "actress." Secretlly, I was screaming inside my brain, "I'm too smart to just be an actress". I wouldn't mind being called a perfomer...it sounds more atristic. I didn't realize this until I went to this acting class on Sunday. There was a whole mix of people, most of them looking to make there way into acting seriously. Here, I wasn't crazy, in fact, I think I was one of the least serious people about acting in the room and that sorta didn't feel great. And there were tons of girls wearing dresses and rediculous heels!! How on earth do they expect to act in get ups like that??? I had changed out of flip flops in case we had to do any moving in the class. I don't think i'll ever be one of those pretty girl whatever actors. I want to be the quirky fun one. Everyone at the studio definetly got a particular impression of me just by looking at my head shot with the lighter fluid and I think I kinda liked that. I've been reading a lot about head shots, etc. and how you should pick your "type" and really sell it. I think my type is silly, spinny. It's honest. I'm not sure if it's an actual "type" but it gets people's attention. People like to hire those that are fun and enjoyable to work with and I don't think I'd have problems with that. My goal this summer is to relax and have as much fun doing theatre as I can because that's what it's all about. I don't want to be like these girls I took this class with who were afraid to laugh! La dee da world!
Yesterday I went and auditioned for my first actual paying job. It was exciting and I didn't die! Then I got a little lost going home cuz I was being stupid. Came home, ate some of rachael's lentil soup and cleaned up my room... Then Josh came over which made me sooooooooooo happy. I got to show off my very own bathroom!! He had some of Rachael's lentil soup too and proceeded to break out into hives from it! I felt so bad but had no idea what to do... So I gave him some bededryl and he was fine by morning. I can't believe he was able to wake up though! The only time I took bededryl (and half the dose josh took) I was out like a light and slept through my alarm and my first two classes of the day! Ahhhh! Yup, so today I started my training as a cage team member at the library! That means I get to scan books!!! Wahoo! Movin' on up! Ok, back to work!
Blah! So I did my audition for the Chicago Acting Studio yesterday and I got into the class I wanted!!! My audition was sooooooo terible though... I really have a whole lot of work to do if I want to be ready for juliard in feb. I'm seriously thinking of not going to paris. If I stay, my BA paper will stay on schedule, I won't have to take an extra class on top of soc., I'll have time to do another play in the fall, I can take another class with the acting studio, I might actually be able to save up enough money to pay to apply to all of these schools and get decent head shots taken, and I know if I go to Paris it will be one huge distraction from practicing for my Feb. auditions. I really want to go to Paris but I think getting into school is more important at this point. Oh, and I have an audition this evening for a summer UT show. I'm so not ready so I'm practicing all day today on my breaks. Anywho, back to work.
Wahooo!!!! I got an A- in early monasticism!!!!!! Now all we're waiting for is french! Please let is be an A-!! Pretty please!!!
Yup, so I have to leave for my meeting with the Chicago Acting Studio in less than an hour. I finished my cart too quickly like usual. There's an audition for a play tomorrow. I hope I get a part... There are only two female roles! Blah!!! So, I'll be practicing this afternoon. Anywho, saw Josh last night. It's annoying how much I missed him. Still waiting on grades! Back to work!
"this is very good and very promising" with not one, but TWO underlines!!!!!! I got a B+ in my Varieties in Intellectual History class!!! OMG this paper about killed me! Wahoo!!! I'm not a bad writer!! I can make a good argument!!! If the intro. section hadn't been absolutely absymal this soooooooo could have been an A-. We must stage more experiments in the future. Oh, and Rachael got a B+ too!!! Yay for us! We soooooooooooo rock! Happy dance!! Please God, let french and monasticism be this good!
What impatience!!! I was moving all day yesterday and packing for the few days before then! Blah!! But now we're chillin' @ Brian's house and we slept ALL day today cuz Rachael and I were dumb and worked a shift at the Library after moving since 7am. And Jackie if you want to know what the tragedy was you should check out altirnative sources of information i.e. other places I might have written something... ;)
Finals are over! My Rousseau experiment was 16 freakin' pages but I turned it in 45min. early!! Work tomorrow, then pack up to move out of the dorm! I can't wait to eat real food again! Rachael and I went bike riding to celebrate today!
Ok, get a coherent argument for my experiment.
Make hypothesis.
Give background.
Then argue!!
La Nouvelle Heloise is so slow!!
15pgs Due 5pm on Wed. and then I'm free!!!
