Sprinkles

I love sprinkles– The kind on ice cream and the ones that fall from the sky. It's so nice here at UF. Yeah it was pouring this morning and I got soaked. But I miss the rain. I miss thunder and lightning, two things that don't seem to come with Chicago showers. I actually miss being able to go out in the rain when it’s not freezing. I haven't put on a pair of real shoes since I got to FL. I'm enjoying every moment of my sandals while I'm here because I know it'll be cold in Chicago when I get back. :( Anyway, now it's just sprinkling and it's wonderful. I'm actually enjoying the crazy humidity. It's like a blanket that reminds me of home. Vale!

I'm leaving!!!

Wahoo!! Jackie's mom is coming b/w 1-2pm to pick me up. Then I'm off to gainsville to stay with Jackie and Urenna @ UF for the night. Then back to Jackie's house to stay there Friday night. It should be fun. I'm tired of this house. It was so nice to be able to get outside yesterday!!! Yup, well I think i'm gonna read a book. Vale!

It didn't rain today.

Step after step I slowly made my way closer to the sun. Dreaming the steps forward as the wind danced through my hair. No thoughts, just steps. A waking moment of bliss as the world melted beneath my feet. It was nice. Vale.

It continues

I live in a world of dreams. How is it that a dream can be more real than reality? Dreams that I don't understand. A place where the costs are great and I'm scared. I fit in my dreams but there is so much uncertainty. I have a purpose but am I strong enough to carry it out? I'm afraid but I have to do it. I pray that it won't come true even though I know it must. The wheel turns and my journey is soon to begin. Will I be ready when the time comes? Vale.

I'm free!

I am so glad to be done with airports!!! Wahoo!! I got in around 10pm last night. It's funny how little things have changed and yet something’s are scarcely recognizable. The essence has changed. I walk in and it's not my home anymore. But then I reflect on my problem with the word home. I just don't understand it. I don't know what a home is supposed to feel like. Chicago doesn't feel like home, nor Atlanta... But I've never lived anywhere long enough to really miss it. I don't have a room here either. I'm tucked away in this guest room that's silent. I wish I knew what it was like to be part of a family. A family that does things together and cares enough to take an interest in your life. I think I got the closest glimpse of what that might be like here but three years went by too fast. And now I'm on my way on my great adventure which will hopefully lead me to Egypt. In the book I'm reading now one of the characters is a young boy who grew up in the slums of Sydney. He dreamed of Egypt too. He too was enthralled by this fascinating world thousands of miles away. It made me smile. Vale!

Ok, so I'm not perfect. I never wanted/tried to be. I've screwed up a lot since I got here and I've done/said things I'm not at all proud of. I wish I could just say I'm sorry and let that be the end of it. But I'm working at it. Good night.

Ahhh!! it's almost 3pm!!

Ok, so it's almost 3 and I haven't started writing this stupid 8 page paper. i don't even know if my topic is going to work!! Blah! Called the folks today and found a lot of one act books to check out over the break in search of the perfect one for next quarter. Anywho, must get to work cuz i have to be at choir practice in an hour!! Blah!

It's over!

Well my audition is over. I don't think i did that great. I was so nervous that i couldn't focus enough to pay attention to the pitch. So it was probably horrible. Dan just sat there writing notes. My scales were bad too cuz i was trying so hard to listen that i was no where near as strong as i usually am. Whatever. I'm sick of all the drama that is Dan. Rachael, Melinda, and I had tea tonight. Rachael finally told me she doesn't like my tea lol. Oh well. Huge german test tomorrow and I just want to go to sleep! Vale!

Last Show!

Well I'm in here in the BSLC killing time before out last performance. Sadness. It's been fun. But now it's just boring cuz I pretty much know what I'm doing. I like discovering my character, the performance is just gravy. I love my shuffle. It's so nice. Although, half the cast gives me weird looks when they see me mouthing along lol. Oh well. It's fun. Well nothing else to say. Vale!!

long day

I'm tired. Tons of ROTC hw to do. Blah. Good night.

Dress Rehersal

Busy day today. I've got tons to do to get my uniform ready for tomorrow, then i have to come up with a paper topic to propose, memorize my stuff for ROTC, jksadfjk. And tons of other stuff that i'm blocking out. I got my cane last night for the play. It's going to be awesome! Benno liked my old man voice a lot. The timing just isn't quite right yet but me and Elliot worked on it today. Also, my reactions as the old man aren't right yet. Mostly, I just stand there and look stupid. But I have to get the character to believe he's not stupid and still be a stupid old man. Whatever. We'll see what happens. I can believe we go on after two rehersals... It's going to be interesting. Well, gtg do a french oral. Vale!