I watched...

Hotel Rawanda today with kate and brian. I couldn't watch a whole lot of it because I kept on running and hiding in Rachael's room. I can't believe they all made it out alive. Afterwards, I felt... off. It was as bad as some of my nightmares. So I blew off all my friends and went to the lake. I found a secret place in the rocks where no one could see me and I cried. As I sat there talking to God the sky cried with me for hundreds upon hundreds of people I've never met. And I just lay there for a while. I couldn't stop crying. Having the dreams made it hurt worse because this was real. These were real people. And no one helped them.