Flight Jodie

I really didn't feel like doing hw tonight. Listen at your own risk!!

: )

Woke up around nine today and went and worked out with lindsey. Waking up so late causes you to loose so much time. It's already noon!! Eeek! Well I have rehersal soon. Lots for me to think about today. What's wrong with me??? Smiling and unable to stop... Gtg! Vale!

So much to do!

Yeah, so I was at IIT all day. It was a nice not so stressful LLAB which made me happy. Now I'm home and just got back from dinner. I have two hours before rehersal and all I really want to do it sleep. Instead, I'm gonna clean my room and do some hw and maybe look over my lines. I think it would be nice to know what it's like to sleep again! I had a nice day though. I hung out with Michael for a while which was fun. I like how he makes me smile. Well I should get to work! Vale!

P.S. This is why I haven't been writing on this thing. I've got so much work to do I can't hardly think of anything to say. And everything I really would like to write about are things I do not feel like posting on the internet. Sorry everyone.

I should be sleeping

I had such I nice walk home from rehearsal. It was drizzling and I was prancing home to some jack johnson. It was nice. It's funny how it didn't rain all summer and now that it's cold it's raining every day. I have so much work to do. The play is going well. I think Jeremy has done a really good job making the cast feel comfortable around each other. I mean screaming to my husband to come and "scratch my ass" doesn't even make me flinch in rehearsal. We'll see how it goes during the actual performance. Oh how I can't wait. I really love performing so much. But I think this has been a good play for me. I'm getting to do a lot of things I've never done on stage or otherwise. Especially when it comes to the physicality of my character. Well i'm about to fall asleep. So i'm going to bed. Night!

I'm in air chem right now!

Ok, so I really should be paying attention to this class since I haven't been going to lecture and I have a midterm on monday but science bores me... Wahoo to the anonymous person who left a note! I dunno I've been so busy with egyptian and my german mid-term on monday. I haven't slept much in the past few days. I want to kill my egyptian prof. He tells us that we are not expected to memorize the vocab. because we will always be given a dictionary and then he decides no dictionary for the mid-term!!! Sheesh! So now I have five weeks worth of vocab. to learn this weekend. I want to cry. Speaking of crying you should have seen me at the naked theater meeting last night. I don't know, I just really care about this show and what an impact it had on me and it really hurt when everyone was appalled by the idea that a theater group would (heaven forbid!) do shows. I think the problem is we're divided as to what kind of aesthetic we want our group to have. And the founding members of naked seem to have a very different idea of what naked should be verses many of the newer members. Personally, I just want to do theater. I want to do things that move me, that get me excited, and I want to be able to share that with my audience. I want my audience to leave different than they came in. I don't want to be just merely entertainment. i want to make my audience think about something. But I don't want to do a show, just do a show. I mean what would be the point? I want to explore questions with an audience. Is that such a bad thing? We having a meeting to talk about all of this and I hope I can find a way to go. We'll see. Well I should start taking some notes! Vale!

Pain! Lots of Pain!

Yeah, so I went and did PT at IIT this week and now am in a lot of pain. This is in addition to the millions of bruises I got this weekend at FTX. Oh well... Yeah, so I think I've actually managed to get myself in over my head. I'm just barely getting stuff done for my classes and have play rehearsal and voice lessons, etc. I haven't been sleeping. And I'm having a really hard time in Egyptian because I never have enough time to put in to it. I mean it's the whole reason why I'm here! I'm just really frustrated. ROTC is going well this year though. And I'm sitting here listening to The Last Five years. I'm missing a FOTA propoasal meeting right now which might be the best way for me to get funding for this show. I just don't know what I'm doing. What I want... But right now I'm taking a moment for me and just listening. In a few minutes I'll get up, clean my room, iron my uniform, shine my shoes, do some reading, sleep for a few hours, and continue to push away at it all tomorrow. I will find a way to make this work! Good night.

It's been a while!

Yeah, so I've been soooooooooo busy. Three languages was not the smartest thing I ever did. I think I might take French pass/fail just because it's kicking my behind! It's entitled cours de prefectionnement! And when they say they are going to perfect your french they mean it. It's soooooo darn nit picky! I'm actually doing better grade wise in german where i don't understand anything the teacher says! It's getting a bit better but my pronunciation is appalling and I keep getting in trouble for always wanting to use an article like in French!! Egyptian is fun but getting hard very quick. I had a lot of fun making up a story so that I could remember all the signs in order so I could use my dictionary. Anyways, enough about classes! It's really nice to be back at school. I didn't realize how much I missed all my friends until I got back to school! I also realized that I do not miss the dining hall food but I do miss the fact that they do my dishes! I also missed being able to download music from all sorts of people on the school network ;) I'm currently downloading harry potter audio books lol! I'm so going to fill up this darn hard drive faster than I planned. Well, we'll deal with it when the time comes. The drama in my life has increased exponentially since school started. Let's just say guy problems and non-problems. We'll see what happens. Anywho, I need to get to work. Oh, I cleaned my room and it is sweet! Vale!

Tonight's Rehearsal

So, I'm in the process of winding down and going to sleep but I really want to write this down. So Jeremy asked us tonight to walk across the room as slowly as possible. And while we were doing this we were supposed to think about our past. And so I began walking. Feelling the floor touch every inch of the bottom of my foot. And I started to think. And there were just flashes of moments. Times when I was upset, feeling like the world was crashing in on me when I was living with my mom. Trying to imagine that being worse like I know it must be for my sister right now. Then I started to think about moments where I felt safe and content. I remember laying on my bed in the winter with the heater on. It was warm and snuggly and I was reading harry potter. Back in the day when I could spend all my time reading. Then i remembered sitting out in front of Campbell waiting for mom to pick me up. I remember sitting there and listening. And I was just amazed and mistified by the trees across the street. the wind blowing through those trees was louder than traffic. But no one noticed. I remember standing at the bus stop in the morning and being completely taken away by a flock of birds. I remember sitting in my room by the window when a sudden breeze hit me at just the moment when I was feeling sad. And I thought about how they say you have a flashback of your life when you died. And I thought about all the moments I would want to relive if I were going to die at that moment. They were mostly pictures. Mostly walks, or a breeze. Mind while I was doing all this i did a sumersault like Jeremy asked us to. Then i turned around to go back across the room. I went so slow. It was really hard and I'd mess up but i'd fix it slowly. Anyways, so i was thinking about happy moments and most of them were times when i stopped. Times when i stopped and let myself breathe. And i remember when i was younger this was second nature. All I did most of the time was breathe slowly and listen and take things in. the people around me, how they were feeling, sensing the world around me without my eyes. And so slowly I tried to bring it back. The way I once experienced everything. And so I took a few very deep breaths and listened with my body. Feeling the energy of the people around me. And I was just overwhelmed. I could barely breathe and I wanted to stop and cry and make it stop. But i just kept on trying to breathe very slowly and let go. Let everything go. And it was then that i realized that I was inches away from the rest of the people in the room. I just knew it. And I knew it was time to stop. To let go. ANd I slowly went down to the ground and curled up. Then slowly rolled over and let go. And I got to breathe. It was wonderful.

Wahoo for school!!!

I've been sooooooo busy and sooooooo sick! Like every year, I got sick right before classes started back up. I went to the student care center and she said I've got a virus and maybe some allergy problems as well. i'm finally starting to feel better today. It's raining outside now and it's making me so sleepy. Even though i have a crap load of homework to do and uniforms to iron. Blah on that! I really like my classes though. Middle Egyptian looks like it's gonna be really hard but I'm so psyched! German is gonna kill me though! There's so much homework and I have to look up like every word to understand these stupid stories. Ick! French I think will be alright. I'm doing moliere which is awesome. My atmospheric chem. class has like almost no homework but I'm gonna have to do some major studying for the two tests that will determine my grade. All in all it's about what I expected. I auditioned for all the fall plays yesterday. UT, Knock 'em Dead, and Naked. It didn't go to well but we'll see. I really would like to be in the Knock 'em Dead. It was by far my best audition. I don't know I'm just kinda in the mood to be in a nice light comedy. We'll see. I also auditioned for University Chorus and he made me sight sing! I had no idea what to do.... I think they put up the list tomorrow. lets hope for the best. Although, i don't even know if i'm going to have time to do it. Well i should stop stalling and get some work done! Vale!

Do a happy dance!!

Last day working at the library until school starts!!!!!!WERTJ#$%OU($#%*!@P(#$&*PFD(UGZL:DJFT#$@(%*!P(*)$)
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I felt in tune today

Today was a good day. Well work was a drag and I was really sleepy. And it was drizzily and cloudy and cold and I loved it. So of course i had to go to the Med. Bakery and get a Mexicana hot chocolate that I proceeded to spill all over myself and this book of Irish stories I was reading! So then I cleaned myself off the best I could with napkins and then decided what the hell I want to go to the point damn it!! So I rode my bike to the lake and only dropped my book once! The lake was as violent as I've ever seen it with waves splashing pretty high above the first tear of rocks. And so I dumped my bike and my shoes and socks and went down to where the lake and rocks meet and just stood there. I turned off my shuffle and listened for a while. Then I had a nice long conversation with myself with the waves crashing and splashing my feet in response. And then eventually I made my way back up to my bike and put on my shoes and went home and changed out of the hot chocolate stained clothes. Then I went back to work and took off a half hour early cuz I felt like it and no one cared. Afterwards, I sat on a bench outside the library and read my book for a while and then went to the Naked Theatre meeting. We got a lot done which was surprising. I went home around 8:30 pm where I finally found a player that would play the gilmore girls episode i downloaded!! So I have seen the episode I missed! Wahoo!! And I just cleared all of the dirty clothes off the floor in my room and put the iron away!! Did some push ups and sit ups and now I think I'll go to sleep cuz I have to be up by 5:30!!! Eeek!! Vale!


Music: The Next Ten Minutes (The Last Five Years) I really love this song.

Still not sleeping...

It’s midnight and like usual I can’t sleep. I can never get to sleep. Not during the school year because I’m too busy and during the summer I go crazy or something and still can’t sleep. And it’s not because I’m not being tired! Today, I got home from my voice lesson and was so out of it that I fell asleep while checking my e-mail and managed to miss the season premier of Gilmore Girls!! And I can’t find a place to download it online anywhere!! Blah on the world! My voice lesson went well though. I really like my voice teacher she’s really cool. And I’m getting so much better. Today I wasn’t on shifting and it was really weird. I had carts all day so I spent most of my time listening to music on my shuffle. I don’t like doing carts you have too much time to think. I’ve been in a real mood lately. Kinda sad and missing home. I want to walk barefoot in my neighborhood in the pouring rain again. I want to get lost under some trees where no one can find me. I miss how I could find my own special places back home where I could breath for a minute. There weren’t ten thousand people around everywhere you turn. I’m just tired and I need to take a moment and get back into myself. Spend a day outside and re-group. I’ve just been running all summer with work and the play and voice lessons etc….. I need to reconnect myself I think. Vale!

I'm going crazy. I mean that's the only explanation. I'm going nuts and there's nothing I do seems to fix it. I want to scream, run, and burst out of my skin for some reason. To say that I'm feeling restless would be an understatement. I can't sleep anymore and I think I'm driving Rachael crazy. Last night we were watching tv and I swear everything she put on was like my least favorte show on the face of the planet. ANd normally I'd be a good sport about it when she puts on the food network for hours on end or something i detest just as much but today I'd just had it and went crazy. I feel really bad and I apoligized for being so annoying but Rachael still seemed pretty steamed. The only thing that seems to mildly help is a ton of physical activity. Enough to tire me out to the point where I don't care about anything anymore and can drop into an exhausted dreamless sleep. But then I wake up really sore feeling just as bonkers as I did the day before. I don't know but this library is killing me. This summer is killing me. God do I need school. I need every moment of my day filled!! Damn the world. You know I remember spending summers just sitting around reading and such but this summer I can't sit still long enough to do anything. ljkasdljajlkaweorjiorewajlkaeuoialjkdoiurewjlkr3wlk. That's all I have to say I guess.

Craziness!

Ok, so I've been on a bit of a hiatus cuz Seth was here visiting for the week. It was awesome. And now things are back to normal and I'm feeling a bit stir crazy. I went and biked down town and such Sunday. I probably spent a good 4 hours on my bike. Unfortunetly, it didn't help at all. So I'm going running today to burn off some of this "Oh my goodness this summer is dragging on forever and I want to scream, kill someone, and jump into the river in true Simon fashion!!!!) Rachael and I had a girl's night in last night--pizza, ice cream, girl talk--the whole shibang. We had fun but we stayed up way too late talking. We were gonna watch a movie but that never happened. Oh well... It's not due till wednesday. I still really want to scream because of all the blah that has been this summer. I hate summer and I want it to die. Then school could start sooner!! Well back to work! Vale!

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The Wrath of Hermione

Harry and the Potters!

And the total is...

5th Floor: Needs 218 Bookends

3rd Floor: Needs 153 Bookends

That took forever!!!!!

Bookend Blues

Ok so I got the goofiest assignment at the library today! I am supposed to go to the 3rd and 5th floors and go up and down every set of shelves and count how many need bookends!! lol. It's pretty dull. After about 2 hours I started to become aware of how I walk and started playing with it. I took a nap for half an hour this morning too. It was nice. I'm not sure if I'm ever going to finish this though it's taking forever. I just finished the third floor. At least the 5th floor has the Egypt books!! Maybe I'll start at the end and go backwards cuz all the egypt books are there. Hmmm.... Yeah so I've got rehearsal tonight. Hopefully, my one really annoying scene will start working tonight. I doubt it though. We're doing a run which always makes me sleepy. Still no luck with the flapper dress. I'm hoping for a miracle at this point. So yesterday evening I applied for the darn loan and got rejected so I've got two more to apply for tonight. Lets hope for the best. Then I watched the notebook. I've been in a girly film mood lately. So I was thinking about the book I just finished again. It made me a little sad and confused as to what I want. I mean I'm the girl with "the plan". Undergrad - 4 years in the airforce - PhD - High School Teacher. That's the plan. But I don't know... When I read these big epic books about someone who brought their people together and did something great, something amazing. I mean we all want to do something significant, something that will leave a mark or something, to make and impact. And I've always been satisfied with the idea of becoming a teacher. I mean those are the people who have had the biggest impact on my life thus far. And I would be really good at it. I know I would. But I just don't know. Every now and then I get this unsettling feeling inside that there's something I'm going to do, something I'm supposed to do. But I can't quite lay my finger on what that is exactly. But for now I'm just going to go with the flow until I figure out just what that is. Vale!

My accent sucks!

Yeah, so I'm not at all pleased with my accent for this show! Blah! I'm just not british!! I'm working on it though. Hopefully I'll be able to pull it together in a week. I have to go to the financial aid office today. It's a mess. And I must apply for loans tonight!!!!!!! Yes, tonight!!!!!! I'm really going to do it. And I'm gonna do my laundry. I seriously have like one clean shirt left! Sheesh! This play has been keeping me sooooooooooo busy. It's wonderful. I finished my book yesterday. It was wonderful. A little predictable but not really. You thought you had figured something out but really she expected you to get that part and it really wasn't that important cuz there was sooooooooo much you haven't figured out yet! I'm sure that probably makes no sense to anyone but me but oh well. I'm back on the B-Level. I've got a bigger job to do today though so I'm actually working. That and I've got nothing better to do. I want to read another book. I need to go to the public library because buying books has gotten way to expensive! I mean this small like 600 or so page hard back book was $30~!!! It made me sad because I absolutely had to have it. Oh well! Maybe i'll go to the library after work today. After I apply for a loan!! Must do that today!! Yes today!! Wahoo!!! Then maybe I'll do my security clearance paper work!! lol. Well Vale!

Dancin' @ the Library!

Yeah so I was making room for macroshift stuff on the B-level today. Oddly enough it was nice to go back. I kinda missed it lol. But I always complain about things I like and/or don't really mind too much. I get that from my dad lol. I really should try and stop complaining so much. It's kinda annoying. Anywho, so i finished really early and so I read my new book most of today. I really need to finish it cuz I've been neglecting my music practice during my lunch breaks because I can't stop reading!!! This book is like going home. When I was younger the only place I ever felt at home was in my books. Books where people tell tails to each other. Times when values were different. I like the magic, the integrety, the love, and mystery... I don't know. I just love this world this author lives in. All her books are very consistant in the world where they exist. I just love it. But it's almost over and that makes me sad. I'm going to have to wait for forever for the next one to published in the US. Oh well. Vale!