Guilty Pleasure

Jackie you should especially check out this website:

http://www.cuteoverload.com/

Go me! Go me! It's almost my Birthday!!!

Yay!! Music is back!!! Enjoy!

Wahoo!

Ok!! So I got an A- on my Civ. paper, B+ on my super crappy Alexander the Great paper, Dan Stearns is letting me take his Shakespeare in Performance class, I just sent off my application for the 500 Clown class, and Jackie might be coming to visit the weekend after I turn in my final papers!?!?!?! Hootey-Hoo!!

Fun new band

Listen to some stuff here:
http://myspace.com/nousnonplus

You can get the lyrics in english here:
http://www.nousnonplus.com/nnp_lyrics1.html

I especially liked the lawnmower song. So silly!

Vale!

"And I can't sleep. I need to tell you... Goodnight."

Bah on the world. I have class at 9am and I am so not tired. I tried to go to sleep and it totally failed. So now I'm gonna read mamet's True and False: Heresy and Common Sense for the Actor. We'll see how it goes. Vale!

Change of Plans

I think I am going to stay at UofC for my final year and not graduate early. My BA is a mess and there are a bunch of acting classes being offered next quarter and next year here at UofC that I would like to take. So I went and talked to David Spatz who didn't want me to just forget about my BA and goof off, but said it would be fine for me to do. I just have to talk to my advisor and preceptor. Yeah, so I think I'm gonna do it. I am meeting with my BA and academic advisors tomorrow and working it all out. Hopefully, it all goes well!! Only sad thing to note: I can't pre-register cuz i forgot to meet with my advisor. I'm such a space case sometimes. Thank God auditions are OVER!!!! Vale!

"Nobody needs to know"

How many times can I listen to this song? Why is this the song? Right now I find myself in need of a little morale. I did my last audition this past weekend. It went very well, but they only take five girls, so there's not much hope really. But I have plans set in place for next year. Patience and hard work. I can do this.

The Best Valentine's Day Ever

Jon, my oh so awesome valentine, gave me the nicest card. It said: "Roses are red, Violets are blue, but not even lime green egyptian theatres are as groovy as a chic like you!" He also gave me raspberry Lindt chocolate and godiva raspberry ice cream!!! I wanted to get Jon some manly stuff for valentine's day, so I gave him 2 cards (one tacky one that played music ;), a KING sized snickers, and a manual can opener (I mean what's more manly than a manual can opener???) :p

Memories

So I'm watching eternal sunshine for the millionth time, and all of a sudden i started thinking about where I would hide memories, and you know just random childhood memories. It's dumb the stuff we remember. So here are a few of mine:

~Running all over the house with lame excuses like i need to clean my stuff in the kitchen, so i wouldn't have to keep watching Jurrasick Park, but invariably I'd come back, freak out, and make another lame excuse to leave.

~Sitting on a stool in the kitchen as my mom cut my hair short for the one and only time i had my hair cut short.

~Playing in my mom's room at her dresser with the big mirror. One time I kept brushing my bangs to the side to make them look like Ariel's from the little mermaid.

~All my barbies, my barbie comforter, the alladin stickers on the wall.

~Ultimate Hide and Go seek

~Putting on my old purple clothes to go play in a big pile of dirt they just brought in for building a new house.

~The little boy named Eric who lived across the street.

~following a creek to a lake no one knew existed

~getting caught in a storm of bits of dandelions when i was walking in the woods

~jamming to alanis morsett for hours while walking my dogs

~performing skits for my mom on the tile entryway to the house

~the christmas room! our extra living room became a christmas room. Lights everywhere and the little village that my mom made. I remember sitting on the couch in there just enjoying the lights.

~my mom's big closet that was filled with tons of craft stuff. she always had just what you needed.

~falling off the monkey bars and having the wind knocked out of me for the first time. i thought i was dying.

~my too perfect first date/first kiss under the stars at my first homecoming dance

~the huge argument that same night with my mom because everything fell out of my purse during that kiss and i didn't notice. My mom got all pissed that there weren't any pictures and we were screaming and i was crying. My mom decided she wanted those pictures so she took some of me crying in my dress. I don't know what ever happened to them. My mom never remembered to develop film. I remember thinking this was the most "perfect" way to end such a great evening.

~crying in the bathroom to my dad when i finally decided i had to leave

~crying in my dad's arms when i found out my parents were getting a divorce

~my dad hitting me so hard my mom called the police. the next day when all my teachers kept asking my what happened.

~exploring every inch of every neighborhood i ever lived in

~birthday cakes. my mom always made the best birthday cakes. green ones, pink ones, ones with trolls, one shaped like a worm. whatever i wanted. green icing with pink cake.

~spending summers at my dad's and reading all day and all night

~hours spent volunteering in the library

~kick ball

~the fire drill that lasted an entire day cuz they couldn't figure out what had tripped the alarm

i guess that's enough for now.

Happy Valentine's Day!!

I don't get why everyone is so anti-valentine's day. It's like one of the silliest, funnest holidays every. This just goes to show that people take themselves too seriously! I mean it's so cliché to hate Valentine's day! Anywho, I picked Jon to be my Valentine so I would have someone to lavish my affection on, and I've been having waaay to much fun with it. And it's so nice to be done with mid-term papers. Since Saturday I have done the following:

Saturday: 8pg paper on ethics and evolution
Sunday: 7pg paper for Civ. on Roman attitudes on slavery.
Monday: 2pg paper about Male vs. Female long-term/short-term mating strategies
Tuesday: 5pg paper refuting the relevance of the entire topic for my Alexander the Great class
Wednesday: 7.3pgs of introductory material for my BA

Total: 29.3pgs in 5 days, including all the research for each paper. A Personal Record!

Anywho, yup. I'm glad to be done writing!?!!!

Thank God it's Valentine's Day!

One Down, Six to Go!

So I did the Illinois Theatre Association open call audition yesterday, which was crazy. I only had two minutes, and neither of my monologues really worked in that format... Anywho, I got in there, told them my name, and they started the timer!!! Normally the timer starts when you start you actual pieces so you can take a moment to breathe and then start, but no such luck with these people. I led out with my smaller, emotional, personal piece cuz that's the one that usually gets people, but my heart was racing and my whole body started shaking and I couln't center my breath! Bah! So I think I need to lead out with a very active piece, where I can use that energy to propel me forward. So I think I'm gonna start with Violet ;) The cool thing about this audition was I got to watch the other 12 people in my group audition and I can sum up their work in three bullets:

~No one used the space
~No one was really personalized
~No one had a sense of humor!

And violet has all of those things. So, I'm doing it! lol. Let's hope for the best!

In other news: My BA is a disaster!

Vale!

OMG!!!

Harry Potter 7, July 21st. I want to die!!!! ;alskdjf;alskdjf;alskdfja; lsdf I want this weekend to be over already! Vale!

Oh yeah!

I love that I have my music back!!!!! Thank God for music!!! Now! Do it! Music will be returning to my blog in the near future (hopefully). lalalalalalalala! i wish i could sing. Stupid nose!!! Vale!

a;lsdkfja;; I know i'm a looser!!!

Ok, so my Mac is now fixed!!! been working for more than 48 hours!! Moral of the story: Don't drop your computer!!!

OMG! Juilliard audition is on MONDAY!! Yes this monday and I need to write 12 pgs of my BA and an 8pg paper for Evol. Mind Morality!!! Bah on the world. I should just lock myself in a room and do it, but everytime I try and work I end up working on my monolgues. Kurt thinks I'm ready. I'm excited, but freaking out that this is it. Oh, and if they ask me to sing I have no freakin' clue what I'm gonna do. I'm so stuffed up that nothing is working right. That and I'm really not a singer. I'm just going to make it short and the least painless it can be. laksjdf;alksdjfa;. Oh and I spent most of today trying to get oppen office to work on my computer since my word software won't work. Bahahahahahahahaha. Yeah. I'm freaking out. How many times can I sayt that in a day?! I just need to relax, breathe, and kick some ass. I wish monday were here and then i wouldn't have to freak out anymore. That and my papers would be done ;) Yeah, my last evol. mind morality paper went well. Too bad I'm not going to be in class to see if he picks it to read. I was arguing for Camus that the main phylisophical question is whether to commit suicide or not. Normally I wouldn't argue something like that but this SocioBiologist dude Williams was so freakin' annoying I just felt like giving him grief. yeah. So I should go do work and not think about stuff. But stuff is all i can think about alskdjfa;lsdkfja;lsdkfj. I'm ready, I'm awesome, I'm good enough! I'm more than good enough! Their program will be lacking without me!! That's the mentatility. I'm gonna kick some ass. Just make it personal, and beautiful, and breathe!!! Just breathe!! And make big choiceS!!! DIscoveries!!!

Revised Schedule, I'm gonna die on tuesday :(

Monday, February 5th
9:30am Juilliard Audition (Palmer House)

Tuesday, February 6th
8:30am URTA orientation (Palmer House)
9:22am URTA audition (Palmer House)
10:40am ACT audition (Hyatt)
4pm NYU audition (Hyatt)

Thursday, February 8th
11:00am Yale School of Drama audition

Saturday, February 17th
8:00am DePaul Audition

Juilliard is my FIRST audition :(

I've got my audition schedule (one still needs to be changed though)

Monday, February 5th
9:30am Juilliard Audition (Palmer House)

Tuesday, February 6th
8:30am URTA orientation (Palmer House)
9:22am URTA audition (Palmer House)
10:40am ACT audition (Hyatt)
11:00am NYU audition (Hyatt) (I hope I can get this one moved)

Thursday, February 8th
11:00am Yale School of Drama audition

Saturday, February 17th
8:00am DePaul Audition

Back in ACTION!

Sorry for no real posts in what feels like forever. Classes start tomorrow. I of course have a plan. I always have plans. Many of the ones for this quarter are inspired by songs. I spent so much of break just listening to music. You know, all your favorite songs kinda music? The stuff that always speaks to you without fail? Anywho, I should go to bed.

"I'm up every morning at six
And standing in line
With two hundred girls
Who are younger and thinner than me
Who have already been to the gym
I'm waiting five hours in line
And watching the girls
Just coming and going
In dresses that look just like this
Till my number is finally called."
-The Last Five Years, "Climbing Uphill"

The Verdict

I'm opening up my blog so that anyone can comment on it again. Jackie, have fun with your anonymous notes again! lol.

I leave in a few hours...

Bah on O'hare being so damn far away!! Anywho, so I was reading some speculation about the new HP title and now that I think about it's implications, etc. I think it might not be so bad afterall. Yup, so I just read my new scene for scene study class and it's AMAZING!!! lol. I'm playing a crazy! lol. Back to what I'm good at! Yeah, I think Kurt is getting better at picking scenes for me. Speaking of Kurt, I went to work with him one on one this week and boy was that an experience. I've never worked on minutia like that before. Immediate Need: something small, about the size of a golf ball with a goofy face... some sort of toy, etc. I probably should just make it. Oh, and I'm sorry about the confusion about leaving notes on my blog lately. Blogger has finally gone google, so you'll need a google account to leave notes now I think. Anywho, Happy Christmas everyone!! :p

I'm a LAZY bum

I've gotten like nothing done during my first week of break. This week I'm taking the GRE!! wahoo!!! Yeah, and stuff. So michael was playing this really angry song which he called a "love" song and somehow this led to the challenge of making a "love" playlist. Mine is long but here goes with a blurb explaining why I picked each song:

"The Cuddles Mary Gave" from A Man of No Importance

• It's the small stuff we remember about the people we love.
  

"As Lovers Go" from Dashboard Confessional's A Mark, A Mission, A Brand, A Scar

• Because you're always afraid to jump.
  

"Bella Notte" from The Lady and The Tramp

• Because there's always music playing in the background when you're in love.
  

"Love Doesn't Kill You" from Fastball's Harsh Light of Day

• "Love doesn't kill you; it's supposed to make you feel better." I really want to believe this.
  

"Banana Pancakes" from Jack Johnson's In Between Dream

• Because sometimes the sweetest thing you can do for people you love is help them forget the world and relax.
  

"You Don't See Me" from the Josie and Pussycat's Movie

• I sang this song a lot when Josh and I broke up.
  

"La La Means I Love You" by the Delefonics

• No brainer. I love this song.
  

"My Lover's Gone" from Dido's No Angel

• For the emptiness that remains when love is lost.
  

"All I Ask of You" from The Phantom of the Opera

• Classic lover's duet. I love it.
  

"A Postcard to Henry Purcell" from the Pride and Prejudice Soundtrack

• I love the tension in this song, but maybe I'm just remembering how this song worked in the movie.
  

"I'll Cover You (reprise)" from Rent

• For mourning and celebrating the passing of those we love.
  

"One for My Baby" sung by Frank Sinatra

• For every person who's tried/wanted to use substances to forget love.
  

"Shimmer" from Fuel's Sunburn

• For love that fades. For love that's out of our reach.
  

"The Man I Love" sung by Ella Fitzgerald

• For the dream of love. For those who are still waiting for love to find them.
  

"The Next Ten Minutes" from The Last Five Years

• For falling in love.
  

"Nobody Needs to Know" from The Last Five Years

• "Because I need to be in love with someone"
  

"Break Me" from Jewel's This Way

• For trust.
  

"Why" from Tick, Tick Boom

• For memories of love. For childhood love. For the love that drives us to do something great.
  

"Dido's Lament" by Henry Purcell

• "Remember Me." Saying goodbye to love sucks.
  

"You" by Amy Lee (unreleased)

• For The confession of love. For the fear and the joy.
  

"Cry Me a River" sung by Ella Fitzgerald

• For everyone who's ever been hurt by love.
  

"I Hate Everything About You" by Three Day's Grace

• I think the title says it.